let me clarify...

first off, thanks to all that sent IMs concerned with how i'm doing... you guys are great... and there's no need to worry so much...

so in my last post, i seemed to give the impression that chris doesn't do things for me... but that's not true... he does a lot for me... and manages to surprise me every now and then too... so, it's not that he never does anything special for me, it's just been a while since he's been able to... and i know that when things calm down with his job, he'll have time to pay more attention to us...

i just get a little selfish sometimes... and really what i want is a normal relationship... but i've come to accept that that's not going to happen... and part of me really likes that we don't have a "normal" relationship... for me, anyway, it makes me more appreciative of what i have... and a lot of ppl in "normal" relationships take their partners for granted a lot... and i never want to be in those shoes...

so, to sum up and clarify... chris does do special things for me... and makes me feel special a lot... and for that, i am truly grateful... but there are times that i miss the things he used to do (because he had more time) and the time we used to have together... and i'm looking forward to getting back to that... yeah...